dreams...
And last night for the first time since beginning this blog I awoke twice, turned on the lamp and wrote down my dreams. Once at 2:00 AM, and again at 4:00 AM. And a note, lest I seem promiscuous, I often use the term "girlfriend" when describing my dreams, or "ex-girlfriend" - this is not true, strictly, they are dreams, the people that appear as players are often pastiches of people I've known, but in the dream the relationship is clearly defined. So, no, I haven't as chequered a past as I appear to be confessing, these are dreams, immune to logic...
The First Dream (2:00 AM): - An Ex Girlfriend - L***-***, is being piggybacked by me, we are dressed up, it's Halloween, the main floor of some office tower, there is an open area, office, filled with people partying. She wants to go in and join them, but we know they are demons, still, she is curious, I warn her, once in we won't be able to leave...
We enter the party, they look like normal people, but they are demons. And we can't leave, we'll be trapped here forever, the exits have all disappeared, we have to escape - I go to the wall where the window was before, taking her with me, we walk through it, now a patio with a little fence, barricaded off, we fall over it together and begin to run down the street in slow motion.
It is an effort to run, we can't move, our steps are slow, and the demons are following us. We are on Rice Howard Way in Edmonton, running in slow motion, two demons behind following us, they look like men in suits, eyes wide open, sniffing the air, they are looking around, but they are blind, they can't see us, they are sniffing the air, following us by scent.
We make it into Rigolettos and try to hide...
The Second Dream (4:00 AM): I am with someone, we are going to the Airport(?) I think, it is nightime and the sky is luminous with the light of ten million stars. He's taking me to the airport, we are looking for a giant US flag that will mark the sky and show us where to go. There are the words 'Noctilucent Clouds' in my head. He leads me over a bluff, and suddenly we fall straight down a slide or chute, like a water slide, only farther- a break in the slide, free fall, then again onto the slide and we are in the airport, our luggage scattered around us. it was a long fall, I think we should have sent our luggage down first to be safe....
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More dreams, half forgotten and not written down, carelessly thinking that they would linger in memory. Last night I watched a movie - Ironically entitled "Happiness". Perhaps you've seen it. Billed as a comedy that somehow is a little too dark and overpowering, it put me out of sorts.
SO 2 dreams, one - a simple recipe card with a table of italic paragraphs on it, perhaps 5 rows by 7 columns. I can't remember what it said.
And two: I am at a friends, sleeping over with a girlfriend in an attic, somewhere in the country, a farmhouse, old bed, exposed wood and beams. And I get out of bed to go outside, at the foot of it is a garden spider, large and bulbous, the kind that spin their webs in front of your porch light, it climbs up it's web and hides behind a support. The bed fills the attic, I have to squeeze past the spiders hiding place to go outside.
Something is happening, there is a party, it is dark, I run into another ex, it's her place, we arrange to meet, later on, groups of people over the hill in the field, still dark outside, something is going on. I shouldn't be meeting her, but I feel doomed. . .their is sex, but no passion, no eroticism, the details elude me, we are to meet again, dissatisfaction, in the attic my dream girlfriend is still sleeping, but there is something I'm not realizing, I don't know what it is, it's eluding me and both of them have disappeared. The spider is upstairs waiting and I must go back to sleep.
2 dreams, neither satisfactory.
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Not that exciting, really, not nearly as exciting as the title might suggest. It's evening, and I'm standing at the backdoor of an old house with 3 girlfriends. One of them is faceless, anonymous, unknown, the second is jealous, the third is trying the door. I'm in love with the third and want her to go into the darkened house to find a present I have left hidden for her. She is young, beautiful, lithe with dark hair. . .we're excited, and in a world all to ourselves. But #2 is very jealous and is going to make a scene, #1 is silent. And I wake up.
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I've been having more dreams as of late, just nothing worth noting. Dissatisfied dreams, one dream of a familar place (the intersection of 14st and 17ave SW) - autumn, walking across the street to find they've redone it entirely, paved it with cobblestones, no cars allowed, colored leaves scattered over the stones, crossing from south to north to find myself completely lost in a new/old neighborhood. File this one under 'lost in familiar places'.
But, good news, I've a new boxspring. Recalling that for the past 2 months I've been sleeping in my kids beds this is an improvement, at first it wouldn't fit, but bouncing upon it made it fall finally into place. Which is good, as I was worried about falling through. And so I've begun to clean the house, which for 2 months has been stalled, the lack of box-spring my final excuse against cleaning, now to move the heaps of linen from the living room floor into the bedroom, remove the quilt from the floor, pick up the pillows, maybe even sweep the floor and vacuum. . .arrange my neckties, hang my clothes. . .
I'm running out of excuses.
I've set up a pen and paper beside my bed, to jot down those dreams of relevance, as I've noted I've begun to remember them more. Credit the boxspring.
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